Books, Films, and Other Things You Should Discover, In No Particular Order

  • Volbeat (music)
  • Autumn by David Moody
  • Martyrs (film)
  • Yourself
  • Ralph Waldo Emerson (author/philosopher)
  • John Saul (author)
  • John 5 (music)
  • Dawn of Ashes (music)
  • Hocico (music)
  • Grendel (music)
  • Psyclon Nine (music)
  • Bhutan (country)
  • Caodaism (religion)
  • Heart-Shaped Box by Joe Hill (book)
  • Vincent by Tim Burton (short fim)
  • Sugar (short film...adorable!!)
  • Spider (short film)
  • Alice's Adventures In Wonderland by Charles Lutwidge Dodgson (book)
  • To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee (book)

Saturday, May 29, 2010

This is the most perfect story for a returning blog post.......

So guys, it has been a *long* few weeks. I've had to deal with alot of growing-not only my own, but my family's as well. My brother has graduated high school *YAY!!* and began his adult life. The relatives have gone home, and I've taken some reflection time on myself and am starting a journey of healing. Oh!! I've started a 365 project-you take one picture and upload it per day. Mine has to do with memories from each day..if interested you can find my link here: . You don't have to join to see my pictures. ;]

I posted this up as a note on my Facebook page but thought it would be beautiful here as well, for those of you that don't have Facebook but read through my blog. <3 So, here you are-my returning post, with a new promise to update as much as I can..things are changing, so it won't be every day, but I promise to try my best. <3

"So, I was going to put this in my sacred journal, the one I write my deepest thoughts in-but it is too beautiful to keep hidden away from the world, so here I am writing in this place instead.

I went to the library today while Chrix and Mikey were going to the mall. I forgot my library card at home, but figured I could convince the man working the desk to give me a "get out of jail free" card-no worries baby, he's gay and his boyfriend sits next to him at the same desk. Lol. I only took the two books off of the reservation shelf-because I'm a nerd like that. I walked to the desk, the man said he saw me check out books almost every other day (sadly, that is not a lie) and said it wasn't a problem, but next time not to forget my library card because he might not be working and I'd be..well, screwed. After checking out my books, I walked outside to head back to my car. There is usually at least one homeless man hanging outside of the library-not asking for change or bothering anyone, but just because they have nowhere else to go in this city. It's sad, really, and I hope one day I will be able to purchase and donate a room to those in need of a place to stay.

Anyways, as I was walking out to my car, I noticed that there weren't any around..strange, I thought, but I kept going to my car. I've made sure to bring along an extra water or two for anyone that looks thirsty, because well..this is Phoenix, AZ and the temperature can reach 122 in the middle of the summer. Homeless or not, and regardless of their background, they deserve the chance to survive.

There is a park that is just down the road from the library-maybe a five minute drive. It has statues in it of random people, and I've been there before. I'm working on a 365 project currently, where you take a picture a day, and inside of the park is a statue that completely fascinates me and warms my heart. I thought it would be a beautiful representation of a beautiful day, so I brought along my camera for a few quick pictures on the way back here.

I parked my car across the street and after safely crossing (always use the crosswalks folks) began my descent into the park. It was a beautiful day today-my temperature gauge in my car read 99 degrees Fahrenheit, but while walking around it definitely did not seem that hot. There is a circular path that takes you through the park, so I decided just to follow that path. Boy was I surprised at the end of it.......

I was walking around, snapping pictures here and there of beautiful things...check out the folder I'll be making in a few if you want to see them..I'll probably title it something that has to do with this story, because it is well deserving. Anyways, as I reached the end of the pathway, I noticed a homeless man sitting in the shade by the statue I had originally came to photograph. He wasn't directly in front of it, but as I stopped to take a picture, he smiled at me-so I smiled back. I always do, because smiles go a long way, whether you notice that or not. He waved me over, and luckily I had an unopened water bottle with me..I grabbed it as a "just in case" thing, since I hadn't used it at the library door like I usually do. As I approached him, he smiled again, and the first thing I noticed was the look in his eyes. You just know pain and suffering when you see it-I don't care how cold-hearted of a person you are, there is always the look that bothers you right down to your core when you know someone has had a rough past. I didn't sit down like he can never be too careful...but as I got closer and closer I began to have a feeling of peace, one that I haven't felt in awhile, especially around strange men. The first words out of his mouth were "please, don't call the cops on me for asking you to come over, I'm not a bad person and I'm not here to hurt you." I just smiled and said "Sir, I won't call the cops on you. I like meeting new people and their social status does not bother me." I handed him the water bottle, and told him it was unopened but that I didn't need it. He took it and drank about half of it in one gulp, lol, then looked back up at me. His next words, I will never forget:

"I don't know why I've stopped you, and I don't even know who you are. I live here in this park and I saw you walked and just received this sudden urge to speak with you. I'm not a psychic or anything, and I really don't want to freak you out-but I just need, really need, to tell you that you are going to be okay, that everything is going to be okay. You have a man that loves you deeply, inside of his heart, and he is going to be the strength you need-so let him do that for you. Don't be stubborn. I just need to tell you that you're beautiful inside and out....please don't call the police on me, because I don't mean it in a harassing way, I just felt the need to tell you. I won't bother you any more..thank you for the water and I hope to see you around sometime, with your love, and children."

It was then that I shook his hand and thanked him. He asked my name, and I told him, and I asked his in return, and he told me too. I told him that his words meant more to me than he will ever understand. He said "God bless you", and I said "Thank you, I wish the same for you as well." It was then that I explained I was in a hurry to come home, and told him that I hoped to see him around again-and then that I hoped I never saw him again, because he deserved a wonderful place to live, with wonderful things. I think we both had a moment where we were teary-eyed and I took that moment to bow away.

You see, sometimes, you ask for a sign. Many times, you miss that sign. The times you need that sign the most, are the times when it is a direct smack to the face. I'm not Christian, in fact I believe in Gods for everything, and I'm not trying to say he was an angel, or Godsent, or anything like that. However....I did a lot of asking and realizing today, with Chrix's help, on many many things. I realized it is time to let go-that I can no longer let my past rule my life. I realized there is a journey of growth that I need to step foot on, and that while it will be painful, I am not alone-that my soulmate is beside me, and together we will beat down my past and overcome it. I realized that I have been weak-no longer will I allow the small things to bother me, nor will I allow fear to hold me back.

Today, I shook my signs hand. His name was Joe, and he lives in the park near the library. I have never met or seen him before...and I have the most wonderful feeling that I will never see him again."

Monday, May 17, 2010

Dear world...or at least those that are following me.......

I'm still alive!! I promise. Sorry for the lack of updates and the broken promise...things have been crazy this month. Tomorrow is my little brother's high school graduation and we have family in town. Before they got here, things were still crazy behind-the-scenes. I promise to come back and update regularly as soooooooooooon as all of the insanity is over, lol.

Monday, May 3, 2010


Well, there isn't too much to write about tonight I suppose. My apologies to all!!!!!!! I had some other, more important (sorry blog but it's true!!) things to attend to.

That being said, I'll leave you with my very first book review (yay!) to make up for the lack of topics to discuss with you.

Heart-Shaped Box by Joe Hill

Now-let me begin this by stating a fact: Joe Hill is the son of Stephen King. Another fact: he is also an author. One more for the road: this book is DEFINITELY worth a read (or more!!). I found a copy at my local library, and I'm sure you can do the same as well at yours..but it is definitely worth the purchase if you choose to buy it.

The book begins by introducing the main characters, as all novels do. The MAIN main character (haha) is an ex-metal rock star, dating a goth girl many years younger than him. His obsession lies with his collection of odd items: one is a videotape of a murder, some skulls, the gothic list goes on and on. His personal assistant and he decide to purchase a dead man's suit, and come to find out, the purchase was rigged. He is now haunted by this dead man (I cannot tell you who the man is, or it will give some things away) and must find a way to rid himself of the ghost before he is killed, along with his girlfriend and other loved ones. I found this book to be entertaining-a great read for a rainy day, or any other day, where you need some alone-with-a-book time. While the book may sound like a gothic/metalhead novel, it is about the paranormal-and the goth world is not involved, other than the girlfriend being gothic herself. On a scale of one to five, I would rate this book a four and a half-leaving half off, because it prevented me from accomplishing the daily tasks I wanted to accomplish that day. Haha!!

This book was recommended to me by a friend, and I honestly was skeptical about reading it..but it turned out to be totally worth the time I spent on it. I now recommend this book to you. If you take the time to read it, I hope you enjoy it!! It will not be a waste of your time.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Ahh the insanity of a couple of days.......

Wow. My apologies guys, for not blogging until now, but things have been a bit crazy around here. As some of you know, Chrix went to the ER the other night-he had been vomiting for 16 hours, without relent, and so his brother took him. I didn't get word until the next night-they kept him on IV fluids and prescribed Zofran. Ahhh..the miracle drug Zofran, that magically stops nausea and vomiting. Why don't they sell that over the counter yet?! Haha. He's okay, and had no other symptoms-just exhausted, as anyone would be that was sick. Thank you again to those of you who kept me company and let me worry on your shoulder-it means alot to me that you all are there.

Good news-I've got three movies for ya'll to check out!! I suppose we'll jump into those, shall we?

Human Centipede

Yes. I saw the "controversial" film last night-and thought it was brilliant. The film begins by introducing two girls, somewhere in their twenties I would assume, that are away on a "road trip" through Europe. They want to visit a club, but along the way, get lost, and their tire blows out. I know, I know.......typical set-up. They get out of the car and walk to a house to ask to call for help. A man answers the door, that lives alone. Turns out he is a "mad surgeon" (think of a mad scientist, but..surgical. Lol.) and is attempting to create a "triplet Siamese twin" set by connecting the intestinal tracts of three people. He chooses these girls, and a man, and the events then unfold after the man kidnaps an Asian tourist and has his three "subjects."

Many people already have preconceived notions about this film, and I will admit, I did too. I mean-it isn't very hard to, when you hear the synopsis for the film. Coming from the IFC network, you already know this is an independent film..and those who know me well, know that I cannot resist independent films. I was expecting gore, violence, and well..with the connection of intestinal tracts, a great deal of "gross out" moments. I am proud to say that this film does not have many of those, if any at all. I think the most disgusting part is when one of the girls frees herself, and upon doing so, an IV is ripped out of her arm...and that was not even gory-I definitely would have closed my eyes for that had I seen it coming, but after, thought "REALLY?! That's it?" Haha. While this definitely isn't for children (there is a bit of vulgar language, not to mention the subject matter), I'd recommend everyone sees this at least once that is into horror films, or thrillers, or anything along those lines.

The Lovely Bones

I also watching this one last night. I had read the book a few weeks ago, so while I knew what was happening, I was pleasantly surprised. The filmmakers made changes to the story-well, left some of it out-as always, and while I wish they had left certain parts in, I wasn't disappointed with how things turned out. The cinematography alone is a great reason to see this film-the scenery of the "In-Between," as it is called in the story, is breathtaking. The story is of a 14 year old girl that is murdered, and watches her family while she is in the "In-Between." Her family must learn to cope with her disappearance and death on their own terms, and while this is a film about an attempt to find her killer and to gain justice, it is also about the power of healing after experiencing the traumatic death of a family member and friend. I wish I could go into more detail as to the storyline, however, if you have neither read the book nor seen the film, it will ruin the story. Overall, I'd give this movie a watch, as there is no gore, hardly any violence, and has a beautiful message to send if you are a deep-thinker. I do recommend reading the book beforehand though, just so that you can see the differences and don't get too confused. The book goes into more details of course. ;]


This film came out in 2008, and is a bit old, but if you haven't seen it yet, I would put this at the top of your queues, or whatever you may use to keep a working title list of films. This one is about a virus going around that makes people go blind, and shows the effects of it on these people. That's not all-they are quarantined to an area where only those blind people are allowed by the government, and are constantly under watch and treated..well, like anyone secluded in a guarded area by the government would be. Some family members join their loved ones in this area-I believe by pretending they are blind, but you'll have to excuse me if I'm wrong about that, because it's been awhile since I've seen this film haha. It shows how people bond together to survive-not only while inside of this area, but after they are released from it as well. It also shows how people separate themselves in order to survive, when the government stops caring about its people and begins treating them like animals. One warning: there is a scene in this film that is disturbing, and involves..well, the women basically have to "earn" food rations from a group that begins to turn violent, and I'll leave it at that....pretty self-explanatory I hope. While the scene only happens one time (you'll know why after) I feel the need to warn you, because not everyone can handle that sort of thing...I know I walked away from the film myself during that part, because I myself cannot handle violence against women.

I found this film to be disturbing, but beautiful-and only disturbing, because the thought of going blind is in itself disturbing. This is a great film for anyone interested in society, viruses, treatment of people by the government, and many many other genres too. I honestly feel this is a film everyone should see at least once, if not more times, because every time you see it, you figure something new out, whether it involves your feelings and emotions through the film and on the subject matter, or figuring things out within the film itself.

So there you are folks-three films, highly recommended, by yours truly. If anyone has the chance to see these films, or has already seen any of them, I'd love to hear your thoughts-whether that happens on here in the comments, or on my Facebook page, or anywhere else for that matter haha.

I will leave you all with that for the night-the Red Wings lost tonight, Chrix just fell asleep, and I am on my way to join him in dreamland. I hope all of you are doing well!!